Wednesday, September 16, 2009

no looking back!

Do you have days where you wonder, "how did I get here?" or you think "I used to be somebody." vs. the lady who is constantly cleaning, wipes tushies and cooks an occasional decent meal?

Okay. So I don't have days that I feel like that, but I definitely have my moments. Moments when I am busy feeling sorry for myself. Moments when I take my eyes off of God and put them on myself.

Sometimes Dave and I will laugh and reminisce about the good old days. The days where we had 2 incomes and rarely gave spending money a second thought. If we wanted it, we bought it. Weekends spent laying in bed until noon, weekend vacations thought up on the spur of the moment. Good times. But there was a lot that wasn't good too. And looking back, if we are honest, most of those good old days were not so good. We lived for pleasing ourselves, not God.

We wasted a lot of money and a lot of time. So longing for those days is either my sinful flesh or Satan tempting me. It is not something I want!

Nevertheless I have my moments. Just for a second or a minute. A stressful moment when a cigarette might sounds good. Oops! did I just admit that. Yup. I did. See, it might sound good, for a moment, but I certainly know for a fact, without a doubt that it will NOT taste good!

I have to remind myself of this. There is no looking back! You know someone who looked back? Lots wife. Yup. She looked back. And we all know what happened to here. Instead of accepting the grace of Gods provision. she. looked. back. Devastating, is it not?

I can think of many times that God was calling me away-and I didn't accept. Thankfully I didn't turn into a pillar of salt. Grace for grace.

No looking back.

Instead I cling to these verses when I am having a moment.

Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Isaiah 43:18-19

Old things have passed away behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

But one thing I do; Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. Philippians 4:13

What great promises! I just love that God is doing a new thing in my life, that I am new, and that I have permission from God to forget my past. Because who wants to live there? Not me.


  1. What a great reminder. It is so good to remember the good that we have now. To be thankful for what we have right now. Someday we will look back and have fond memories of now. Here is my fav passage:

    Ecc 7
    Do not say, "Why were the old days better than these?"
    For it is not wise to ask such questions.

    11 Wisdom, like an inheritance, is a good thing
    and benefits those who see the sun.

    12 Wisdom is a shelter
    as money is a shelter,
    but the advantage of knowledge is this:
    that wisdom preserves the life of its possessor.

    13 Consider what God has done:
    Who can straighten
    what he has made crooked?

    14 When times are good, be happy;
    but when times are bad, consider:
    God has made the one
    as well as the other.
    Therefore, a man cannot discover
    anything about his future.

  2. That is a great verse! Thanks for sharing:)

  3. Thanks Ness! Somehow you always manage to post exactly what I've been thinking, feeling. I am with you on this one. Thanks for the encouraging verses!

    Also, it was great to visit with you this morning (as always). You are a delight and it made my day to spend some time with you. :)

  4. p.s. I just spent five minutes trying to make a smiling face with a cigarette...perhaps not possible! But you know what I meant. ;)

  5. Amen! I hadn't ever thought of Lot's wife in context of looking back and the danger. Great insight, thank you for sharing and being so honest.

  6. Katie-
    You are too funny! You crack me up:)

    It was fun getting together with you too! We should have a standing coffee date!

  7. I would love a standing coffee date! Let's think about days/times that would be best and do it! :)

  8. wow ness. you are one profound lady. thanks for sharing and going to the 'deep end'. :) and standing coffee date? can i just admit that the green monster is creeping? :*( miss you.


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