I was leaving a comment on my friends blog, who recently miscarried. I was writing a little bit about my experience and thought I'd do my own post-not because I dwell on the fact that I had a miscarriage but because God was so faithful and amazing during the experience.
This is a photo I've had hidden away-showing it is sort of like standing naked in a middle of a room, I don't even think I've shown it Dave.
It just makes me feel vulnerable.
I've labeled this photo "my broken smile" Dave and I were on vacation in CA in February 2007 and I was in the process of miscarrying. I knew it, I didn't need a doctor to tell me. When I came across this photo the other day I was kind of surprised that I was smiling. (or half smiling if you will) This was the first time that I've ever experienced feeling 2 emotions such as peace and a sorrow so great at the same time. I have never felt the peace of God so great as I had here. Knowing that he was in complete control of this situation. And I had Dave, he is so strong and amazing. Just being near him and having his strong arm around me gave me so much comfort. Have you ever felt the peace of God so strong that it was like a blanket of peace wrapped around you? This was the first time I've felt that way, it is a feeling I will never forget.
This is a photo I've had hidden away-showing it is sort of like standing naked in a middle of a room, I don't even think I've shown it Dave.
It just makes me feel vulnerable.
I've labeled this photo "my broken smile" Dave and I were on vacation in CA in February 2007 and I was in the process of miscarrying. I knew it, I didn't need a doctor to tell me. When I came across this photo the other day I was kind of surprised that I was smiling. (or half smiling if you will) This was the first time that I've ever experienced feeling 2 emotions such as peace and a sorrow so great at the same time. I have never felt the peace of God so great as I had here. Knowing that he was in complete control of this situation. And I had Dave, he is so strong and amazing. Just being near him and having his strong arm around me gave me so much comfort. Have you ever felt the peace of God so strong that it was like a blanket of peace wrapped around you? This was the first time I've felt that way, it is a feeling I will never forget.
God showed me his faithfulness when I found out 2 short months later I was pregnant with Preston. Isn't He amazing?
God promises to use everything for the good of those who love him. And although this time was filled with sadness, I've been able to take away and write on my heart that God is my comforter in times of sadness and He is faithful.
I was surprised that in my brokenness I could still smile.
God promises to use everything for the good of those who love him. And although this time was filled with sadness, I've been able to take away and write on my heart that God is my comforter in times of sadness and He is faithful.
I was surprised that in my brokenness I could still smile.
Jenessa, thank you so much for sharing! It find it amazing how God gives us the grace for each day, in the amount that we need. Thanks for allowing me to remember God's great faithfulness today!
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you are such a peach, you know that?! i love that i know you...i love that you are so real...i love that you are not afraid to be raw with your emotions.
ReplyDeletei like to call that feeling the "peace that passes ALL understanding." and i LOVE it! :)
thank you for being so open and sharing your testimony to the Lord's faithfulness in a life storm.
I learned something new about you today. Thank you for being transparent with your feelings. God is good!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you went through the pains of a miscarriage, I know from my own experience what a hard thing that is to go through...I loved the way you worded this post, you really put perfectly to words the mixture of aching pain and comforting peace, and I love how you describe feeling the peace of God so strong that it's like a blanket wrapped around you. That is exactly what it's like, I have also felt that peace and realized how much God loves me as he offered me comfort in my trials. And I'm so glad he blessed you with your cute little Preston boy so quickly... that's how it happened for me with Braden too.
ReplyDeleteThis means so much to me to read about such a hard time in your life and your faith in God's Good Plan for you and your family. Have you read "The Shack" , or the blog- "Bring the Rain"---? Very moving!
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