Monday, October 19, 2009

multitude monday

When I was younger, say in my teens. I thought that marriage was the ultimate goal in life. After which it was attained one sits back, relaxs and life now smoothly played itself out. I don't know why I thought this, It was just my young mind I guess. I just thought this was when life began-then I could relax, have someone take of me and I wouldn't have to worry about a thing. I would always have someone there for me.

You see where this is going, don't you? For one, I looked to people rather than God. I guess I didn't really know God or my idea of who He was was kind of warped. Secondly, I thought that married life would be worry free! Yeah right! I was looking for something that does not exsist in this lifetime.

This post isn't about the first thing though. It is about the second. Worry. The first is another post for another day, but not today.

I don't really consider myself a huge worrier by any means, but I am human and at times, sometimes more than other worry invades my mind.

It wasn't until I got married that I started to really worry. Because now I had so much to lose.
And then when I became pregnant with Preston that I came to see how fragile life really is. It is a miracle. This is when the worry really started to creep in.  I realized just how many things could go wrong! SIDS, a myriad of health problems that could occur, I think I even went through a phase where I was convinced that Preston didn't like me-weird I know.  Then I worried about Dave-his health, his job, his safety and on and on and on.

Sometimes it seems that no matter where you turn you hear bad news, it is afterall inevitable we live in a fallen sinful world. Bad things happen. Spouses die, divorce is real, children get sick, babies die, you get the drift.

So where does that leave me? In a state of panic and fear? Sometimes. When I am not looking to God it does. But, when I keep my eyes on Him and He calms my heart and fears. I can rest, knowing that He is in control. He is in control of the good things that happen and the bad. I am so thankful for who God is.

110. That we are made with eternity written on our hearts. At times I long for heaven.
{Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage. As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; they go from strength to strength. Psalm 84:5-6}

111. That God is in control
{I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say: My purpose will stand, and I will do as I please. Isaiah 46:10}

112. God is my foundation-and He doesn't change. Ever. He is the same always.
{He will be the sure foundation of your times.... Isaiah 33:5}

113.That the same God who formed the Earth also tenderly fashioned my heart and being. {For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mothers womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139: 13-14}

114. He is powerful yet compassionate.
{The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. Psalm 116:5}

115.  I have access to Him-{I feel like a VIP!} I can pray to Him anytime about anything.
{Therefore since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access through faith... Romans 51-2}

116. He is grace. Grace upon grace.
{It is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves , it is the gift of God. Epehesians 2:8}

117. God gives wisdom freely.
{If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. James 1:5}

118. He has a plan and purpose for my life.I don't have to aimlessly wander around.
{For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11}

119. He came to give me life-a full life-not a mediocre life, not just getting by, but a full life.
{I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full! John 10:10}

I am so thankful that God is all these things {and more!} because it means that I don't have to try to be them or look to other people to be who God is. Talk about taking pressure off!


  1. Ness, This is beautifully written. Thank you for sharing this!

  2. beauty-FULL! and my heart is full after reading it. :)

  3. i can so relate to the fear. I remember crumbling in tears one day after a bad day with the 5 kids and hubby away and just wondering what i'd gotten myself into, what I'd set myself up for.
    Grace and letting it go ... just surrendering , eased some of the worry .
    I love the way you organized this list. I am going to refer to it.

  4. Hi, just found your blog. This post is beautiful and heartfelt. I can relate to almost every word.
    I'm hanging very tightly on to #112, He is my foundation and I don't know what I would do without him.
    Looking forward to reading more of your posts.

  5. What a wonderful post!!! Thank you for the beautiful reminders. Very well written and very thoughtful. Again thank you. I am joining you in expressing my gratitude, thank you again. What a wonderful time of year!!!!


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