It's been 2 weeks since I've posted my gratitude.
It's not that I am not thankful-because I am. I am just...I am just... I don't know what I am actually.
I have been struggeling with looking for gratitude on a smaller scale-trying to find it in the everyday, because that is the purpose of this journey of gratitude isn't it? To be thankful for everyday blessings. For some reason my mind wants to think big-that's easy though. The struggle is in the everyday. Digging deep down into my heart to try to find thanks when I am washing dishes, again. I was reading Anns blog at Holy Experience this morning and she was talking about finding beauty in the not so beautiful. Instead of yellow sunshine and green grass-we have bleak November skies, wet leaves, and the cold chills my bone.
It's about the journey, the searching.
Sometimes gratitude is obvious, sometimes beauty is right in front of me. Sometimes I just don't see it. So I pray.
Lord, today help me to be thankful, instill in me a heart of gratitude! Open my eyes to see the beauty that is all around me. I know my life is full of beauty and blessings. Sometimes though, I just can't see it. I get to wrapped up in myself. Lord I beg that you help me to break the habit of being cynical and negative. I pray for joy. New eyes, a new heart. Give me a heart that seeks you, that searches for you and is never satisfied until I find you.
And you will seek Me and find Me,
when you search for Me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:13
And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us...
Psalm 90:17
Remembering beauty.
I continue to search.
Good point. I've been doing the same thing, thinking of the obvious big things I'm grateful for and not so much about the everyday things. It really is harder for me to remember (or convince myself) that I'm "thankful" to have laundry to wash because it means my kids have warm clothes, that I'm "thankful" I am so busy because it means I get to spend these few short years with my children while they're under my roof, that I really am "thankful" for the ability to go grocery shopping (that one's my hardest ;) so my family has healthy meals. It really puts it in perspective when you've been offered the chance to see someone who for whatever reason does not have these things. Who would find grocery shopping for instance, a luxury. Humbling.
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ReplyDeleteThat's so funny, yup, it's me:)
well said! thank you! :)
ReplyDeleteI love the picture of your boots with the leaves, beautiful. You are on to something with 'digging deep' and hunting out blessings. The things I want to complain about are often blessings covered up...thanks for being so honest.
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