Thursday, March 4, 2010

these days.

my life these days. (first of all i have to say that i am blogging in bed-thanks again for the netbook dave!) my life is really good. not necessacarily good in a everything is great all of the time good, but more of a God is really working in my heart kind of a good. you know what i mean? I just get a kick out of God. I really do. Nothing in my life has gone according to my plans. I think that i have good ideas, good plans but i don't. That's why i was divorced and living 250 miles away from home when i was just 20 years old. and that is just the start of the list people. just the start. so i have been asking myself, if i know that Gods plans for my life are better than mine, why do i fight him so much on it? why do i still think that my ways are better? i think that i should be pregnant. but i am not. and really proabably won't be anytime soon. (that's another post) it was not in our plans to wait this long to have another baby. we had it set in our mind how far about we wanted our children spaced. sometimes during the day i feel mad at God for thwarting my plans, i feel sad, i feel discouraged that my body rebels. a friend recommended this book to me: Calm My Anxious Heart by linda dillow. it is an amazing book, it is about contentment. i think every woman should read it if she has the chance. i am reminded that God is the blessed controller of all things. 1 tim 6:15 I am reminded that God has assigned me my portion and my cup psalm 16:5 and most importantly i have learned that contentment is the state of my heart-it has nothing to do with my circumstances. and even though i am a tad skeptical, contentment can be learned. i will keep you posted on this journey to contentment that i have embarked on! Has anyone else read this book? I would love to hear your thoughts on it!

other than that life has been pretty normal. somehow i seem to have less hours in the day, i am not sure how that happened but i seem to be behind a lot! prestons asthama is doing ok. next thursday he has a 2 hour doctor appointment-yikes! dave is still working and we are so thankful for that in this rough economy. that's all, nothing too exciting to report.


  1. there is nothing better than knowing that God is working on your heart - even when it hurts. Thanks for sharing, I will have to borrow your book when you are done, if you don't mind.

    love you!

  2. Well said Ness:) I will have to read the book too!

  3. that is one of the lessons the Lord taught me on our 'journey' to having miley...though it was "long" {in my plans}, He made everything beautiful in His time. thanks for sharing and thanks for always having great book suggestions! :)

  4. I have read the book and have it if anyone wants to borrow it. It's been a while since I've read it, but I remember liking it. I am still learning how to be content, but have learned that the more I try the less God puts in my path to test my contentment ... does that make sense? I really have to force myself to give him thanks in the midst of adversity. It's not easy, but definitely helps move me toward contentment.

    Thank you for sharing your heart ~ love ya! :)


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