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This is a hard post to write, but I suppose it needs to be written. I just found out that we "lost" the baby at my doctors appointment this morning. I kind of had my suspicions yesterday...things were kind of off. {I hate the term "lost the baby" don't you, I really didn't lose it-it makes me feel like a bad mom, like I misplaced it...argghh.} anyways...I/We are Ok. Really. We have not lost hope-we serve a loving God and totally trust in His timing-He knows who our family will be and we trust Him completely. Although we are sad for this loss, we know these things happen for a reason-usually the baby isn't healthy, and the goal of any pregnancy is to have a healthy baby. Although, we would absolutely love any baby that God would give us-healthy or not. I guess I am just feeling frustrated, that this happened again. I really thought that we wouldn't have anything to worry about after having a healthy pregnancy with Preston. {In case you didn't know, I miscarried once before, a couple of months before I got pregnant with Preston.}

Anyways...

I would appreciate your prayers-last time I miscarried I got really sick! I think it will be a hard week health wise.